Have you ever wondered what would happen if you let go of your life in the modern world and walked into the vast, gorgeous expanse of pristine wilderness mountains? Not for just weeks, or months, but with the intention to never return.

~ What I share here is from direct experience of doing just that.

I did not survive because I was skilled, or experienced, or had good gear.

As a teenager, I had none of those things. Can you imagine being in silence for over a year, with only minimal or occasional contact with humans? How would that change you?

My strongest desire walking into the wilderness was to merge into nature and live life on Life’s terms.

Nothing in the modern world made sense to me. Schools, religions, TV, cars, buildings, teachers, curriculums, concrete, parents, it all felt wrong.

I wanted to understand what it means to be human and why I am alive on this crazy planet. It seemed utterly ridiculous to me that I did not know how to survive on my own planet. All of that motivated me to keep going forward ever deeper into the wilderness.

I was not courageous, I was absolutely terrified. Nevertheless, something within me trusted the wilderness and so I persevered.

I also wanted to have direct connection with the supreme intelligence that created this creation. Whatever kind of intelligence that created snow capped mountains, shimmering streams, caribu, eagles, forests, flowers, and galaxies must be some kind of a beautiful, majestic, exquisite, grand intelligence.

In the first months of wilderness immersion, my emotions were especially agonizing. At first I did not know why I was constantly emotionally troubled.

I also felt disconnected from nature. It was as if I was looking at nature, but I yearned to be inside of it. I wanted to be part of the harmony and beauty of the mountains. But how?

I had no protection, no weapons, not even bear spray in those days. My sense of vulnerability was overwhelming . In my mind there was no option to return to civilization, no matter how scared or vulnerable I was.

As I trekked throughout each day in the first months of immersion, the mental and emotional turmoil was nearly unbearable. But my body kept me going. I marveled at the endurance of the human body. Fortunately, I had been an athlete, a long distance runner and a long distance swimmer, so I had the physical endurance to handle being in the elements all the time and walking all day, every day with a heavy pack, for months and months on end.

Every few weeks I returned to the last inhabited place at the edge of the grand mountainous wilderness. A tiny indigenous village had a small general store. I packed as much as I could carry and rationed enough food to last 2-3 weeks at a time. I also wanted to release my last attachments to the modern world, which was the little money I had left, and the general store.

Yes, I had encounters with grizzly, I had encounters with wolves. I had some close calls and several brushes with death in all kinds of ways. These stories are in my book. Here I am focusing on the process of how the wilderness brought me from being a traumatized, confused, and wounded mess into feeling connected and empowered.

I asked the Creator of this existence, “Where are the indigenous people that lived the old ways? Would they take me in? Would they teach me how to live in these mountains?”

In the first many weeks of walking, I had no expectations that my prayers would be answered.

Walking all day, every day, under the majestic peaks, along the swampy muskeg, viewing exquisite beauty in every direction, was exhilerating at times, but even with that, I did not know how to release the haunting emotions from childhood. I had only brief fleeting moments of reprieve.

But, Somehow, I had an instinctual knowing that the wilderness would heal me and make me whole. I had no doubt about that.

I had no idea how to heal myself. My mind was a confused, jumbled mess. I was making great efforts to establish a positive frame of mind, but something big was in the way.

What astonished me was that after about 3-4 months of being immersed in the wild, rugged beauty, my mind was sorting out the confusion and pain of my past on its own accord. In other words, I discovered that there is an order to consciousness within itself. If we just give our mind space, and the quiet to order itself, it will establish coherency and clarity within itself. And my mind was also discovering a coherency with nature, with reality.

When we are forced to survive in the wilderness, our faculties are sharpened. Our perceptions are sharpened. Intuition is sharpened. Dreams are more lucid. We can hear, feel, and see in ways we never imagined possible.

Dreams were more prophetic. I had dreams of flying over the hills and mountains. I had dreams of turning into animals. The dreams taught me how animals live, how they hunt, how they perceive and feel. And then those dreams flowed into real life situations when crossing paths with those animals in the wild.

Epiphanies arose among the trees, the meadows, swampy muskeg, and the higher mountain ridges. Revelations about life were unveiled amidst the brilliant oranges, reds, and yellows of the summer hillsides spanning for hundreds of miles of untouched wilderness embraced by towering, majestic, snowy peaks.

Long quiet days of walking for weeks, months, and seasons was what it took for me to more deeply behold the grand and beautiful harmony of life. I was being digested by nature. I was becoming what I was immersed in. It was dreaming me and shaping me. It was guiding me and healing me. More and more I could behold it and feel it.

Immersed in the natural order of life, it became obvious what was off or wrong about the modern world. I could see through the programming and conditioning of schools and of TV. But in the wilderness, I knew I was right where I was suppose to be. I did not want to be anywhere else.

It was a great relief to be away from modern humans. I was happy to trade the risks of grizzlies or wolves to the stress of trying to communicate with humans. A deeper intelligence within me knew that I had to be away from all humans to figure out what was wrong.

When I was scared all the time and had no one to talk with, I noticed that when I spoke out loud to Creator, those were the moments when the emotional agony lifted. a kind of order began to shape itself around my conversations with the Supreme Intelligence behind creation.

I decided to formalize my conversations and only speak when my mind was clear and sincere about what to say or ask. I made it sacred and it became sacred. I spoke with nature as well, and this, over time developed into deep intimate relationship that had a coherence, an order, an asking, and responding kind of order that began to blow my mind. The responses came through nature, the wind, the birds, dreams, and how everything was unfolding according to my prayers. The epiphanies of realizing there was an omnipresent, loving intelligence listening to me was absolutely, epically mind-blowing.

Divine communications came as grand epiphanies about life, about the modern world, about conditioning, about the nature of nature. With a hypervigilance, and an instinctual trust, I kept forging ahead.

In time, I did find the indigenous people I had been praying for. A prophetic dream showed me 2 indigenous men that I would travel with, hundreds of miles ever deeper into the wilderness. As it happened, I trekked on foot, along with 15 pack horses, a malamute wolfdog companion, Kluane, and 2 First Nation hunting guides, Albert and Skookum. These hunting guides knew the mountains like their great grandparents.

Being with Albert and Skookum, with Kluane and the horses made me feel completely safe. It was a dream come true to travel hundreds of miles through some of the most pristine mountains on Earth with people that knew how to live and survive in these mountains. I watched and learned from Albert and Skookum and did whatever I could to work and participate with what needed to be done. All my inner pain had vanished I felt happy and light-hearted. I was excited about every moment. Albert and Skookum were also light-hearted and playful and mischeivious, and teasing. But I loved it all. The wilderness bonded us in a ways not possible in the modern world. I trusted them. Even with a language barrier communications were simple and easy.

Unfortunately, our time together was only for a few months. When winter came, the hunting season was over, the snows were blowing us out of the mountains and into the lower elevations. Our work was done and they were all going to their villages.

Nevertheless, gratitude, awe, wonder, and excitement became my companions rather than the emotional agony and confusion I had entered the wilderness with.

Thus, I came to discover over and over, the divine principle of, ‘Ask, and ye shall receive.’ as a true principle of reality. After all, I had prayed for protection, I prayed to have direct communication with Creator, I prayed to learn how to live on life’s terms, I prayed to learn from the indigenous, I prayed to be part of nature rather than observing it from the outside, and all of it was answered and received in incomprehensible, miraculous ways.

But then once I had the NDEs, that exploded my consciousness into a whole other level of knowing an Almighty Loving intelligence is absolutely real. ( I share the NDEs on this website.)

Over time and after several truly miraculous life saving events, I’d be insane to not fully acknowledge that there is indeed an invisible, loving, protective omnipresent force watching over us.

I eventually learned that the nature of nature heals. The nature of nature balances. The nature of nature reveals the mysteries of life and death. The nature of nature harmonizes, it grows and evolves with us and through us.

The deeper insights I learned in the wilderness may sound cliche, yet the difference of intellectually knowing and experientially knowing are worlds apart.

For example, I learned that animals, trees, plants, streams, birds, the sun, the sky, and even the planets, are all conscious and quite intelligent. It is interconnected and it communicates with all aspects of itself. Modern language in a way, splits reality. What Life hears and how Life communicates is through frequency or quality of energy. Is our heart sincere, are we respectful, are we humble? This is what nature and animals pick up from us. Nature reads into depths of our consciousness just by feeling the way we walk.

I discovered that the intelligence of nature is far more sensitive than humans can imagine.

Decoding this primordial language can happen within long periods of uninterrupted quiet, tracking every thought, every prayer, every dream, and observing how Life responds with no other influence.

I’m sure I was quite dense and only able to pick up on a tiny fraction of how nature, or Source communicating through nature, was communicating with me.

Because divine consciousness animates all of life, we cannot really separate God from Nature, as pure Nature is an exquisite and perfect expression of our Creator God.

After many seasons of deepening into the wilderness, eventually I came to a feeling of communion with the wilderness. I finally merged inside of it and became part of it. This sense of connectedness was indescribably empowering. Just to glimpse our symbiotic relationship with nature was experientially epic.

I learned that the majesty and beauty and harmony of nature is a reflection of our own souls. That every part of nature is a part of us.

When I eventually returned to civilization, I had been changed. Yet, back in the 1970’s Family and friends looked at me sideways when I tried to share my NDEs, no one had reference points to Earth changes, consciousness changes, or some kind of evolutionary shift. This further distanced me from people and deepened my recluse nature.

Thus, I always had to live on the edge of the wilderness for balance and sanity. Nor did I ever watch TV since I returned to civilization. I wanted no part of the modern programming. However, inadvertently, I was still subject to quite a bit of conditioning like everyone else. The difference was that I always had a reference point outside of the matrix.

My extended wilderness immersions answered what it means to be human. I understood why I am alive on planet Earth at this time. I understood the evolutionary purpose of our existence. I learned what conditioning is verses the pure natural mind unfettered by irrelevant thoughts. A mind present and attuned with nature.

I learned what it means to be human, in relationship with nature, in relationship with Creator. What we are capable of as humans.

Our faculties are sharpened in the wilderness, even our faculties of discernment. It is easy to discern what is true, what is false, what is deception, what is programming, what is sincere, etc..

It makes sense to me that because we have been co-existing and evolving with nature for eons, that we need our relationship with nature to take the next steps of our evolutionary process together. Perhaps we need to attune with Earth, Sun, and the forces of nature in order to ascend to the next level of our evolutionary journey? Or, perhaps all that we may need is respect and gratitude for our Earth and our nature relatives?

Nature is hungry for our appreciation, for our love, for our protection and blessings. It can thrive without us, but when we bring love in, nature responds so beautifully and loves us back in all kinds of sweet ways. Our gratitude completes the circle of life.

There were countless, timeless lessons I received in the mountains.

Turns out my whole life path oriented around the ND and what I learned from the wilderness. It’s given me perspective on the bigger picture. I understand natural laws.

It taught me that that is what we are returning to as a species. We are returning to a natural order, we will learn to live with our nature relatives again. This makes us feel whole and complete, balanced and sane.

Now, fast forward to present.

To be fully honest, I’ve always struggled in the modern world. So, I’ve always lived on the edge of the wilderness, I learned to find stillness within, I learned to adapt.

I still live close with nature, close with Creator.

Now that the modern world is collapsing, Who can afford to live in the system anyways? I’ve gotten older, a bit softer, but still strong enough to live off of the land if I have to.

Now Life is calling me to be here for you, the listener. See my services and if you are inspired, I will love to hear from you.

~I must offer a disclaimer here and emphasize that it is very dangerous and seriously life threatening to attempt to go into the wilderness, especially alone! Experience, skills, and excellent gear are absolutely required. Our Earth is out of balance in this time. With the ice melting and the Earth’s magnetic fields in flux, and with our climate being controlled , the animals are confused and more scared and more unpredictable. For many reasons, it is more dangerous now than it was 50 years ago. Personally, I do not want to go too far out there, especially alone.

We can restore our sense of connectedness with life within ourselves where ever we are. In fact, we are nature, we are inseparable from nature. We can also adventure within our own homes through reading, audios, music, or nature videos, or taking walks in natural settings. The inner quiet of a meditative practice is an excellent way to find that connectedness with life and to restore the natural mind right at home.

My friends, be safe. Do not take crazy risks.

With all my love,

Omi ~ Marta